Its been several years since I've posted anything here. Some things have changed, I am a lot older, but not any wiser. I've switched jobs a few times, same career path though. My motorcycle broke down a few years ago, still half assembled in my garage. Just seems when I have the time to work on it I dont have the ambition. When I have the ambition I dont have time. Wife and I are still together, I wasn't too sure that would happen in 2013. I can be a pretty big asshole sometimes. I am happy she puts up with me. Our kids are adults now but still live at home. They have jobs, but it would be pretty tough for them to make it on their own. I dont mind, I'd hate to see what I'd become without my family. House needs work, money is always the issue. We were thinking of moving to a warmer climate, but that's probably another pipe dream. It will take us years to get the house in a salable condition, well were we could get a decent price for anyway. If it happens I was thinking maybe even Texas, I hate snow.
My Father past away a short time ago. My mother past several years ago, and two of my brothers have past as well. Since my father past I've been pretty depressed, more so than usual. That black feeling that you're nothing but a speck, insignificant. Sometimes I feel like I'm lost in a fog. I think that's described as chronic? I've even caught myself thinking that I just don't want to do this anymore. My father had so many friends visit his funeral, friends from high school, friends from when he worked, golf and bowling buddies. It showed me how much of an impact he had on people. I was recently given 4 tickets to a Packer game, I couldn't think of anyone I could share the tickets with. How sad is that? I've never been the really social type, so I dont have a lot of friends, I guess my funeral will be pretty quiet.
Not everything is cloudy and gloom. We had our first real vacation in a long time a few years back. Took a cruise!! That was fun, we went to the Caribbean Islands, Grand Turk, St. Martins, Puerto Rico and an island called Half Moon Kay. That must have been the most beautiful island I can imagine. White sand beach, clear water, palm trees the whole picture. I also discovered that salt water and cell phones dont get along. So when I got back home I had to buy a new phone. *SIGH*
I guess there has to be some rain once in a while.
We took a 2nd cruise in January, went to Mexico. Didn't really care for that, beach wasn't anywhere near as nice as the Caribbean. Doubt if I'll go back, Don't get me wrong, the people were nice, cruise ship was nice, food was good. Just seems like the beaches are not kept up. Lot of seaweed and several of the beach chairs were broken and the drinks were heavily watered down. About halfway there, some guy supposedly tossed his wife overboard, the ship had to stop and attempt to look for her. Went in circles for a few hours until the Mexican Coast Guard begrudgingly took over. As far as I know the body has not been recovered. That event may have contributed to the somber mood of the trip.
After the cruise we spend a few days in New Orleans, French Quarter. I liked that a lot. We may have been in a haunted hotel. One night I was having some trouble falling asleep. (I know, how unusual for me.... ) but I "felt" some movement and opened my eyes and saw a fuzzy figure standing on the other side of the bed. must have been my wife. She walked towards the bathroom. I was a bit more awake now, but decided as soon as my wife gets out of the bathroom I'd go as well. After some time of her not coming I was getting impatient. I sat up and there was my wife still in bed sleeping. I dont think I fell back asleep and missed her coming out. I decided to ask, she said she hadn't gotten out of bed at all. Well that certainly wakes you up.... I get out of bed and go to the bathroom to look around, nothing. Needless to say I didn't sleep much after that, not sure about my wife. The next few days were uneventful ghost wise. Had fun though, would definitely consider going back some day.
We are planning another cruise. Going back to the Caribbean side, but we are taking our kids. We didn't really take any family vacations and that has always been one of my biggest regrets. My children deserve a better father. Sorry, the negative stuff was supposed to stop after the first two paragraphs. I hope this family trip will help my kids understand that I think the world of them.
I think that's enough for now, nobody reads this shit anyway.
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